A night out from a new perspective

So, last night me and my BF decided to go out, after having spent an entire day with the theme SEX (no, we don’t do that every day…), shooting some pics of me, visiting sex shops… even in the damn bus I was thinking about how nice it would be to stick my hand down his pants without anyone noticing. . . . . Yeah… in other words, I needed no further inspiration; I was already in that state of “I wanna go wild tonight” when STARTING drinking (at home). 

Once in the club, which was not bad in terms of people (still crowded when we came – 2 AM) the DJ had some serious issues and we couldn’t find anyone looking like dancing for the pleasure of the music, but rather for the feeling that there was nothing else to do than move along a bit in order to not look static and boring. Rather bored with the impressions my eyes started to search for something nice to look at, and I found myself focusing rather on slim legs, high heels, firm breats and sexy necks rather than…. Yeah, some fine ladies in there. Damn, I didn’t use to feel this, and believe me, i am still hetero, but it’s just that feeling of the forbidden that arouses me a lot… 

Let’s face it, I am a pretty decent looking lady, and I believe that if i would make a move on 5 random guys on a dance floor, the vast majority of them wouldn’t mind some rubbing, some touching and some licking, and I’d say it wouldn’t be hard to get one with me home if I’d wish…. but a WOMAN? The thought of it makes it exciting.. .what will she say? All of a sudden the game is not obvious anymore and I actually risk to get slapped in the face :S The worse thing that happens in the case of the target being a man is usually something like “sorry, you are really sweet, but I am here with my Girlfriend… sorry… hmmm”, which is not that hard to take. But what about if I’d make a move on a woman? How should I even do it? 

What do you think about my thoughts of today?

So dear women out there, let me know, is it just me that is weird?

Friday dear friday

So, it is Friday.. this wonderful day of the week… as soon as lunch is over there is like an invisible countdown in the whole department. Around 3 in the afternoon some drinks are secretly being made in the kitchen, and whenever my “overconfident” talkative boss busts us we blame it on the cultural difference and tell him to adapt! Around 4 on a friday afternoon in my department everybody is intensingly staring at their screen, and a couple of months ago (when I was new at the job) I actually thought everyone was just trying to get as much as posisble done before the weekend .Now i know that what is actually going on is some serious killing of time and competition with yourself of how long you can manage to NOT look on the clock… 

As I am rather new in this city I am in a phase of exploring, mostly together with my boyfriend, the nightlife of the town. I have to say that going out without knowing anyone gives a certain feeling of security, even though thats contradicting in itself…. I mean, it’s not like anybody you know is gonna see you. Whatever you do, say or show, nobody will remember you tomorrow ;) I find myself lately staring more at girls than guys in places like bars and nightclubs though; it’s just that… honestly – there is just so much more attractive and good looking women than men!

I still think back at that time, about 5 years ago when my boyfriend (no, not the same, the current one has just been going on for a year…) asked me “whether i had any lesbian experience” and I thought he was a freak. Sweet, innocent and ashamed i told him that no, i am not lesbian. In the later years though, after entering my “new world”, i have started to see the beauty and sexuality in a woman, and even though not lesbian, i would lie if i’d say a hot night (or, just the idea of it) with a girl doesn’t turn me on….