Friday dear friday

So, it is Friday.. this wonderful day of the week… as soon as lunch is over there is like an invisible countdown in the whole department. Around 3 in the afternoon some drinks are secretly being made in the kitchen, and whenever my “overconfident” talkative boss busts us we blame it on the cultural difference and tell him to adapt! Around 4 on a friday afternoon in my department everybody is intensingly staring at their screen, and a couple of months ago (when I was new at the job) I actually thought everyone was just trying to get as much as posisble done before the weekend .Now i know that what is actually going on is some serious killing of time and competition with yourself of how long you can manage to NOT look on the clock… 

As I am rather new in this city I am in a phase of exploring, mostly together with my boyfriend, the nightlife of the town. I have to say that going out without knowing anyone gives a certain feeling of security, even though thats contradicting in itself…. I mean, it’s not like anybody you know is gonna see you. Whatever you do, say or show, nobody will remember you tomorrow ;) I find myself lately staring more at girls than guys in places like bars and nightclubs though; it’s just that… honestly – there is just so much more attractive and good looking women than men!

I still think back at that time, about 5 years ago when my boyfriend (no, not the same, the current one has just been going on for a year…) asked me “whether i had any lesbian experience” and I thought he was a freak. Sweet, innocent and ashamed i told him that no, i am not lesbian. In the later years though, after entering my “new world”, i have started to see the beauty and sexuality in a woman, and even though not lesbian, i would lie if i’d say a hot night (or, just the idea of it) with a girl doesn’t turn me on…. 

… Don’t get me wrong, its not that I am staring at girls in the dressing rooms of the gym, or try to chat them up in the clubs… but hey, I have to admit that an attractive woman keeps my eyes on her longer than normal, and yes, i DO notice the sexuality in a well-shaped body and firm tits… I do think and KNOW that many women can kiss you like no man can, and just the kissing itself can bring this intense warm feeling… different from with a man, but still… HOT. With a man I can get the feeling that I’d wish he’d just rip of my clothes and fuck me hard right there and then… while with a woman… I would like to lay, touch, caress and kiss, kiss and kiss… and feel no need for more, but just enjoy the moment. Maybe it is about the forbidden, maybe it is about … the excitement of not being defined by the sexes, but rather for who you are. I mean, let’s be honest… with a man.. he is the one to put something inside at one moment; with a woman – who will be the first to take the step? Who will touch in the intimate places first, who will dare to go inside the panties…. all these things which with a man are so clearly defined are all of a sudden new, exciting, and yeah, honestly… ONTURNING. maybe that’s the whole thing, the excitement, the unclear roles, the question of how far to go…. anyway, it feels good. 

I have limited sexual experience with only a woman, meaning that I have not had many partners. Nevertheless, the experience I have had, has been very nice and exciting. In some way I felt that there is this connection with women, like, you don’t need to talk, or explain… you just understand (maybe because you know what she means). Well, I guess this attraction I feel doesn’t hurt anyone, especially not my boyfriend as he doesn’t feel threatened by my attraction to sexy ladies; he rather feels proud that I can express this and honestly… I don’t think my flirting with wome and the occasional threesomes bothers him at ALL – rather at the contrary!!! 

You think it’s weird that I don’t mind sharing my man with another woman? well, it’s not like I share… I mean, it’s more like … showing off what I have! Men DO get attracted by hot women – on the street, in bars, at work… that’s a fact! Whether they choose to go further or not, that’s up to each and every one of them. My man doesn’t touch any woman (in a sexual way of course) without me being present and that, for me, is enough. It turns him majorly on when a sexy stranger (woman) and I make out and caress each others tits while he fucks me gently form behind… and he is not the only one – I feel like I get double pleasure! The hot and forbidden, unknown area of having sex with a woman in combination with the best penis I know inside me, just the way he knows I like it… how much better could it be? Well, let’s be clear on one thing; part of the excitement is that the woman is “new”, so we do not have girls that we sleep with regularly – never the same woman is the unwritten rule. My limits? yeah of course I have some… I am not wihtout emotions, thus I have to admit that i have so far NEVER let him stick his penis in that other woman so far… so I don’ t really know if I even had a REAL threesome ;) 

So, I guess my conclusion is that going out with my BF and together trying to chat up a sexy woman and take her home turns both me and him on really much! I don’t think this is weird, abnormal or freaky; i think it is a healthy sexual fantasy that I am living in the middle of; and i mean, on top of that, it is not like we bring the woman into a freaky game or fetishes…. we just both think she is sexy and we want to touch, please and satisfy her. In the future I might take a further step, I wonder how I react seeing him fucking another woman? I wonder if I will be jelous… at the moment I feel like i have to have physical contact with him all the time, as if I dont want him to forget I am there… but who knows, things can change……..