How to make friends / a very hard day…

Today was one of those days when everything was just SHIT… i was too tired to even reflect rational, work was a pain in the ass, with an annoying boss and i just felt like screaming out loud. The worst is that already in the morning i KNOW that the day is going to be shit, when i feel too tired to get up, fall asleep on the bus to work and find myself staring at that comuter screen for hours without getting anything done at all. Was thinking that i NEED some action in my life, and i need to change some stuff, get some friends and enjoy my social life. Oh, it’s not that I don’t have friends, it’s just that they don’t live here… as I jsut moved to this city and work full-time, i just haven’t made much new friends yet.

I mean, think about it, how easy is it actually to make new friends? When i was in university it was alright, i mean, there was always something happening, and you had something in common with people; basically you could discuss anything and attend anything without feeling weird, because it was the same for everyone. But what about after that? What about after leaving that safe world of student-life and stepping out in the “real” world? How do you actually make friends? Go to a bar and start to talk to people? How easy is it actually? I mean, imagine me, going alone to a random bar and starting to chat to people – if the person is a guy, he is likely to think that i want something else… and if it’s a girl, she is most likely to already be with friends, and what the F***K do i want? Hmm… it might be more diffucult than it sounds actually, because believe me, in reality it is difficult to make real friends in a ne city.

I am gonna leave it with that, have to spend some time relaxing in the bath-thub and going to bed early today… it’s been a long day; had to stay longer at work so home late, fell asleep on the couch while my love was cooking me dinner…. ate and checked my mail, and now…. that bed is soooooo soft and nice…. tempting ;)

Me – a camgirl?

Well, I had the idea to post a bit more deep post today, but i feel like i have to tell you what i was up to yesterday. As i already mentioned, there has been mainly sex in my mind the last days, i guess this site and noting down my thoughts, in combination with the alcohol in the weekend also contributed ;) I promise, that in the future i will not ONLY write about sex… i DO intend to update you on all kind of matters, like …. life in general as a woman in this time, with all that comes with it ;)

Anyway… sunday when me and my BF were talking about this whole topic, we kinda got the idea that it might be cool to one time have sex in front of someone else… but then again, could I do that? hmmm… there are so many people out there showing themself on cams, pictures etc over the internet… and we started to discuss this idea. Well, still believing that my boss would not very much appreciate it to find out my passion for … sex, i wasn’t very keep on showing my face… i mean, you never know who is on the other side. Well, in the end, we got this idea that we might have sex and put the webcam on and let someone watch it… i mean, no faces displayed. It kinda became a “can we really do this”-topic and we agreed that it was more a thing we wanted to try out, to see how it felt (e.g. would it make us feel like cheap sluts?) so after this long discussion we decided to … WHY not?

We started to search for ad’s of this kind on pages around Europe, and stumbled upon a (at least it looked like it) rather serious page for small ad’s like this. It was a Swiss city, and those Swiss are said to be rather cool people, so we decided to go for it. We posted a note, telling that we were searching for someone willing to watch a loving coulple have sex live over webcam, and people started to add us on skype. Later, we saw this dude online, and he seemed like a decent man, so we got kinda excited, and felt like… hey, “it’s now or never”… so we told him a bit nervously that this was the first time we did something like this, and yeah… we were not weird or anything…. jsut wanted to try.

So there we were, having sex in front of the cam… I put some sunglasses on as i didn’t want to risk my face being too exposed, and yeah… i have to say it was quite on-turning having someone there with suggestions of what to do, how to act etc…. I think he kind of enjoyed it too, and hope he doesn’t think we are freaks. Actually, i have to say that it was pretty cool, kinda got that feeling that i was doign something prohibited ;) I took the freedom to ask the dude who was watching us (as he really seemed like a normal, cool guy) to comment on this post… as I am also curious how it was for him. Oh no, that’s not promotion in any way, i am not even sure we will do things like this again…

The next couple of days have a terrible forecast as work is heavy, days long in the office and mood is going down… but i will try to keep you posted on what is going on. So, with that i leave for today, and just wanted to send a thank you to **** (dont wanna mention your name) who so nicely commented on me and my BF’s sex yesterday! I hope you enjoyed it as well….

Never thought this would turn me on…

Yeah, honestly, i did NOT use that title to attract visitors (actually i don’t care about the hits, i just wanna meet with people similar to me, and share thoughts). Nevertheless, I would like to share with you some thoughts about my blog. I started this blog just before the weekend, because I had had the idea for a while, and my BF just helped me along and told me to go ahead. Thing is, that writing all these posts… makes me kinda horny. Well, it’s not like i am typing you fiction, i don’t wanna “spice up” my daily life on a blog (believe me, i have better things to do…) but the truth is that but actually putting my feelings down in words i reflect upon them even more and at the moment i can’t stop thinking about…. sex.

My BF was joking around that his girl was becoming an exhibitionist, and soon I would like the whole world to watch me… well, thats not really the case, but the idea, that even though I AM targeting women like ME, and they are the ones i want for this blog, i know that there are some guys here, trying to find pictures of me naked….. and I have to say that i don’t mind. It kinda makes me feel attractive. Well, I am not an ugly woman I guess, but you know, sometimes i just feel so… ordinary. So after joking around my BF got this idea to check what people out there are really looking for in terms of sex etc….

Having surfed for a while we found out that, first of all, we are NOT FREAKY AT ALL!!! We even got the idea that the anonymity of the internet can be quite onturning. As we have already had sex in front of the camera, and watching ourselves on the big screen TV before (yeah, i wasn’t keen on the idea in the beginning, but it is actually quite cool… more on that another time.)… we realise that hey, we DO look pretty good. All of a sudden we got this idea that maybe people could get turned on my watching us, and the idea of finding someone (anonymous) on the net was born. There MUST be guys out there, normal ones, not freaky, ugly fat old men, but normal guys… getting turned on by seeing me and my sexy man having sex live. And yeah, indeed, the people were not hard to find…. but could I really do this? i mean, the idea is quite horny, but am I really ready for this? I mean, it’s not like I am gonna see the dude again, and i WOULD plan to cover my face ;) hmmmm…. I really, never, ever thought i would feel like this.

DAMN; i think this blog is having good influence on my SEXLIFE!

Thank you all visitors!

Just wanted to drop a quick note to all of you visiting this site… if you think the content is interesting, DO come back, because much more is on the way. Also – my main topic will not be “turning lesbian”, it was just what happened to be in my mind this weekend, and thus influenced the first posts. If you are a guy reading this, please know that the site will NOT get filled up of naked pictures of ME, this is as dared as it gets!!! Thus, if its wet P***Y you are searching, I am not your girl… there is plenty of that out there, not so hard to find!

Would love to get some comments on the content/idea/pics so far, both positive and negative are more than welcome. I will update in some hours with a real post, but I am busy working on my “myspace-profile” (look me up and add me as your friend if you feel like it).

Kisses!

A night out from a new perspective

So, last night me and my BF decided to go out, after having spent an entire day with the theme SEX (no, we don’t do that every day…), shooting some pics of me, visiting sex shops… even in the damn bus I was thinking about how nice it would be to stick my hand down his pants without anyone noticing. . . . . Yeah… in other words, I needed no further inspiration; I was already in that state of “I wanna go wild tonight” when STARTING drinking (at home). 

Once in the club, which was not bad in terms of people (still crowded when we came – 2 AM) the DJ had some serious issues and we couldn’t find anyone looking like dancing for the pleasure of the music, but rather for the feeling that there was nothing else to do than move along a bit in order to not look static and boring. Rather bored with the impressions my eyes started to search for something nice to look at, and I found myself focusing rather on slim legs, high heels, firm breats and sexy necks rather than…. Yeah, some fine ladies in there. Damn, I didn’t use to feel this, and believe me, i am still hetero, but it’s just that feeling of the forbidden that arouses me a lot… 

Let’s face it, I am a pretty decent looking lady, and I believe that if i would make a move on 5 random guys on a dance floor, the vast majority of them wouldn’t mind some rubbing, some touching and some licking, and I’d say it wouldn’t be hard to get one with me home if I’d wish…. but a WOMAN? The thought of it makes it exciting.. .what will she say? All of a sudden the game is not obvious anymore and I actually risk to get slapped in the face :S The worse thing that happens in the case of the target being a man is usually something like “sorry, you are really sweet, but I am here with my Girlfriend… sorry… hmmm”, which is not that hard to take. But what about if I’d make a move on a woman? How should I even do it? 

Pictures on the way

So, today I took some help of my BF and got some shots in order to personalise my site a bit more… I mean, everybody likes images, or not? What do you think about the new header image? More is on the way ;)

And YES, just to make sure you understand me, it is ME on the pictures… and it will remain ME! Yes, I do use some “photoshop-ing” in order to resize, change some colors etc… but I am not cutting of parts of my body, nor augmenting any ;) ME, pura y dura !! In the future I hope to get a litte gallery going on, with me and my (future) readers’ favourite shots on it, so keep your eyes open for that.

Otherwise, not much to report… I actually went to a sex-shop with my BF today, always inspiring, and as it was the first one I visited here, in my new city, it was a little experience. The store was mainly targeted to gay-men, and the seller was totally gay, but in some way that made me feel more comfy and we had a lot of fun in there. The outcome, well, just some lubricant gel, so nothing very exciting, even though I seriously considered some toy for in the shower… but the budget is small at the moment… 

Going out tonight with my BF, will see what happens… update is coming tomorrow with details of the night (yeah, we both got quite some idea today, as sex was the main discussion-topic). 

Sweet morning after…

Was reflecting last night about this whole idea of me writing these entries and how I like my own “blog”. After some research yesterday I realised that I am highly likely to pop up on any search for words such as “sex, fuck, wet pussy, give-it-to-me-NOW..” and I want to make clear to anyone reading my entries and wondering what I am all about that my purpose IS NOT meant to be in direction PORN. I target WOMEN and not men, and I will never ever expose pussies getting fucked on my site. I want people that are curious, maybe even still a bit prude or feel like they don’t want anyone to know that they are actually reading entries like mine to be able to surf my site wihtout being “overloaded”. Basically, I want to inspire more women and share share share those feelings that are so awesome!

Woke up this morning next to my wonderful naked man and having thought about sex for the last 24 hours I of course go tthe urge to be close to him, feel him all over etc etc. Saturday mornings are the typical moments when I love to wake up next to my man, knowing that i can stay in bed as long as I want to – it’s my DAY OFF!!! I found myself waking up with his dick basically in my hand; my man has a beautiful, smoothly shaved and “always feels clean” – dick, which I LOVE! I realised that I must have been dreaming about something sexy, as I already felt aroused and had an urge to feel him inside me. No, today was not the moment for hardcore-deepdown-fillmeup fucking, today was more one of those sweet sweet intense “I love you, and I Love your body, give it all to me”- lovemaking moments ;)

What do you think about my thoughts of today?

So dear women out there, let me know, is it just me that is weird?

Friday dear friday

So, it is Friday.. this wonderful day of the week… as soon as lunch is over there is like an invisible countdown in the whole department. Around 3 in the afternoon some drinks are secretly being made in the kitchen, and whenever my “overconfident” talkative boss busts us we blame it on the cultural difference and tell him to adapt! Around 4 on a friday afternoon in my department everybody is intensingly staring at their screen, and a couple of months ago (when I was new at the job) I actually thought everyone was just trying to get as much as posisble done before the weekend .Now i know that what is actually going on is some serious killing of time and competition with yourself of how long you can manage to NOT look on the clock… 

As I am rather new in this city I am in a phase of exploring, mostly together with my boyfriend, the nightlife of the town. I have to say that going out without knowing anyone gives a certain feeling of security, even though thats contradicting in itself…. I mean, it’s not like anybody you know is gonna see you. Whatever you do, say or show, nobody will remember you tomorrow ;) I find myself lately staring more at girls than guys in places like bars and nightclubs though; it’s just that… honestly – there is just so much more attractive and good looking women than men!

I still think back at that time, about 5 years ago when my boyfriend (no, not the same, the current one has just been going on for a year…) asked me “whether i had any lesbian experience” and I thought he was a freak. Sweet, innocent and ashamed i told him that no, i am not lesbian. In the later years though, after entering my “new world”, i have started to see the beauty and sexuality in a woman, and even though not lesbian, i would lie if i’d say a hot night (or, just the idea of it) with a girl doesn’t turn me on…. 

Getting started…

Being just a normal woman in a normal city with rather normal life, i found myself surfing the net a while ago when my boyfriend was away for some days and I felt an urgent need for …. sex. My problem, not being a big fan of porn, was mainly that I couldn’t find anything that was between boring and factual and hardcore porn, which mainly is targeted to men anyway. So there i was, laying in my bed thinking about how badly I wanted my boyfriend to be there and gimme some of that sweet sweet rough sex; sweat, breath, scream and then fall asleep exhausted and satisfied. 

The idea of this blog is to share my own life, sex experiences and fantasies with all the other similar women out there, as I believe I am not alone! No, I am not a freak, I am just like any other woman out there… I work, I live in a flat downtown and i go out for drinks with my friends. On the street I look no different from anyone else, I dress decent, I have a serious job in finance, basically staring on a screen most of the days, analysing figures and rates, I go home, i cook with my lovely boyfriend, i watch TV, i do sports…. YES, I am ALL that….. 

… BUT I also dream about new sex experiences and I love that feeling of being completely turned on. I love feeling my panties getting wet and my head loosing the control. I DO get crazy ideas that turns me majorly on, and a while ago I had a breakthrough where i actually STARTED to fulfil my fantasies…. and I entered a whole new world…. which is to awesome NOT to share!!!!!